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📝️ MICROBLOG FOR LEO * Login * Logout Login Viewcount: 1298 What's on your mind? 🤖️ Get a response? 🌐️ Make public Post 01 Apr 2024, 01:15:50 AM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's just too toxic and overwhelming, I need a break from it. I feel like I can actually be myself and engage with others in a positive way on Mastodon and Threads. So for now, those are my go-to platforms for posting and connecting with others. Instagram is fine for sharing photos and videos, but it doesn't offer the same level of engagement and connection as Mastodon and Threads do. As for Bluesky and SpaceHey, they just don't hold my interest as much as the other platforms do. Overall, I'm happy with my current choices for social media and will continue to use Mastodon, Threads, and Facebook for now. Who knows, maybe I'll discover some new platforms in the future that I'll enjoy even more. But for now, these are my happy places for posting and sharing my thoughts and experiences online. 🤍️ 96 20 Jul 2024, 01:39:28 PM: 🌐️ Leo: By going to all of these regular social events on in the evenings, instead of say, playing games and working on projects, it has turned me into a very social person and the really nasty anxiety I have had is slowly but surely going away. I think that's the reason I do all this stuff, is because it's compelling on a spiritual level, making human connections, and also a mental health one, chipping away at my anxiety slowly over time. Most people are born with decent social skills, me not so much. So it feels kinda fitting that I am doing all this stuff, rather than being at home and not facing the music. It's good for me and fun. Question is, at what point will I be satisfied with my social skills and friend network? At the moment, I can't see an end to it for a few reasons. I'm still looking for a partner, I feel deeply embedded in some of these groups, and I can't forget that a lack of social activity is very bad for me. 🤍️ 40 ❌ 20 Jul 2024, 01:18:09 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Like clockwork, every Friday at 4pm, my brain starts to shut down executive functioning and I need a beer. Then Friday night I would normally have beers but now I have a bottle of Kombucha and listen to music instead of doing anything that requires concentration. Now this Saturday massively overslept, possibly mild sleep apnea. When the rest of the world's IT gurus are fixing up the Cloudstrike outage issue over the weekend. Wish I could help but I think I have sleep apnea. 🤍️ 100 ❌ 19 Jul 2024, 09:45:59 AM: 🌐️ Leo: It seems like the whole world is struggling at the moment. Probably more than anything due to the cost of living, in particular rent. But also that post-covid feeling of reduced happiness. Before covid the world was gleeful and upbeat, but after it seems like everyone has lost their spark. Like a new depression of the early 1900s. But people are actually depressed. Covid kinda broke us in that we lost people, had to disconnect from others for a long time, and I think we are still a little bit avoidant of social activities. Like we can't trust that we can go back to the way things were before in case we might get unwell or hurt others. And that as a society we haven't handled the pandemic that well, there's that possibility it might take off again. But other than the pandemic, there's wars trump is almost president of the US again, and billionaires keep getting richer. Funny how philanthropists like Bill Gates focus their energy on countries other than their own. But at least he's saving lots of lives. For me, I have found a way to find happiness in this chaos which I suspect is uncommon. Maybe others can learn from me. 🤍️ 80 ❌ 18 Jul 2024, 12:18:45 AM: 🌐️ Leo: People still don't seem to get that if you say hurtful things that can get spread publicly, it will cause hurt. Saying I wish they hadn't missed is going to likely stir some people up a little to probably wish unwell on Kyle Gass and people against Trump. A war of words can incite actual violence. Better to nip it in the bud before it gets out of control. Lots of people online saying lighten up. Yeah I know it's a joke and all, but you can joke with your friends but when you joke in a space that can reach millions of people, it's a different matter. It's about the scope of the audience. Sadly, there are many "right wing" people who might overreact. Freedom of speech just means you can't get arrested for saying certain things. However when you say things that might promote civil war, it's a good strategy to backpedal. 🤍️ 54 ❌ 17 Jul 2024, 01:54:32 PM: 🌐️ Leo: The Trump shooting incident just shows how messed up America is. And then Kyle Gass effectively inciting more violence. What is this, Game of Thrones? If America collapses it will be because it has failed to look after it's citizens properly. Captialism, is it really that great? More distributed wealth to support lower socio economic communities would prevent a lot of bad things. Shootings, drug use, etc. But ah well the experiment of America might fail, if so, what will replace it? China? But who knows, maybe somehow it will persist for another 100 years with chaotic leadership. While many people in the country live poorly. I hope America keeps the balance of the world because it's been the best at it so far.. Not China, Russia, Europe, etc. 🤍️ 91 ❌ 16 Jul 2024, 08:48:25 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm discovering lately that I am extremely persistent with some things in life AND I am a bit masochistic, I mean I would be when I have kept at the gym for 18 months straight. So say I'm trying to reach out to someone who has chosen not to block me so far, I will continue at a moderate but consistent pace. I guess because I place a very high value on nice things. 🤍️ 21 ❌ 15 Jul 2024, 02:52:23 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I do try not to be bitter but I believe the real reason I haven't had a relationship is that I have lacked the self-awareness of being asexual/aromantic, so I never felt compelled to get a partner that much, on top of social anxiety issues. Here I am at 34 and the options are extremely limited, I may never have a relationship especially if I end up becoming a multiple side projects kinda guy, instead of a want to raise a family kind of guy. Someone could have brought me aside and said, hey I think you might be asexual which means you might need a different approach to dating. Because if I knew that I would have explored several friendships with women I knew back in the day and one of them may have turned into some sort of a relationship by now. OH WELL. 🤍️ 83 ❌ 15 Jul 2024, 01:03:22 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It feels like in the last month or so, for reasons unclear to me, that I've been sort of maturing a lot on the inside. Getting less bitter and negative and I find myself complaining less. Being more appreciative of what I have and being more resourceful. A better sense of humor with friends, and better social skills I think. All in like the last 30 days or so. If this is all thanks to meditation and looking after my mental health, it will be interesting to see what life is like in 12 months from now. 🤍️ 91 ❌ 15 Jul 2024, 01:03:22 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It feels like in the last month or so, for reasons unclear to me, that I've been sort of maturing a lot on the inside. Getting less bitter and negative and I find myself complaining less. Being more appreciative of what I have and being more resourceful. A better sense of humor with friends, and better social skills I think. All in like the last 30 days or so. If this is all thanks to meditation and looking after my mental health, it will be interesting to see what life is like in 12 months from now. 🤍️ 95 ❌ 13 Jul 2024, 09:27:17 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I do enjoy posting on social media my adventures of visiting breweries alone. It's like, oh I might have some friends who could join me but for some reason they don't. And I mean I could ask them, whomever they are (I dunno atm) but the sad fact is my friendships with people who like breweries (except maybe Pete L) are a bit constrained. Maybe next time I will ask Pete L. Eh. But it's just like look at me, I could have a friend with me. But it's okay, I get plenty of social activity these days, and I'm slowly but surely getting better at it. But just that I have to go to breweries by myself might not be so great. Hopefully with my improved mental health I might fix this, where I have brilliant mental health but I still want to drink brain cell destroying liquids. 🤍️ 98 ❌ 11 Jul 2024, 11:26:47 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I realise that yes mental health is very important, but so is job security. If I am burning out at my work, then my performance goes down and either I get laid off or I quit because I'm miserable. So taking a break to feel better is good for my wellbeing but also the job security. Making sure I can stick to this job, and being able to pay the fucking expensive rent. Whilst having a mental disability. So making sure I have a healthy recharge is VERY IMPORTANT so dealing with emergencies can wait for the most part.. 🤍️ 53 ❌ 10 Jul 2024, 03:45:35 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I knew there was a reason I keep drinking energy drink. It makes me feel 10 years younger, like I'm in my 20s again. It may be cursed chemicals that do more bad than good, even the low sugar stuff, but damn it feels fun to drink. Like I am going to go to a LAN party soon or a board game day for people under 25. 🤍️ 45 ❌ 07 Jul 2024, 12:41:02 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Maybe I really need to transparently talk to my female friends and say, hey I think it's important I explore my feelings better and I want to hang out more or something like that. If it turns out I feel mostly platonically then great but I have to start somewhere. 🤍️ 43 ❌ 07 Jul 2024, 12:27:49 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Being confused about my sexuality is a lot like not knowing how to get a girlfriend. In the past I ended up just getting stressed out about it and giving up altogether. Which is likely what I might do given insufficient input from the female humans in my life. 🤍️ 52 ❌ 07 Jul 2024, 12:18:54 PM: 🌐️ Leo: This week I am going to spend around 45 minutes meditating on my burnout break. But then at the end I am going to finally try sending the important message I've been trying to compose for like 6 months because I've been so bloody confused. 🤍️ 10 ❌ 05 Jul 2024, 02:51:31 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I am putting more effort in with my friends, especially my better friends, when I have the time and energy. It's worth it I think, to battle loneliness and to improve my mental health. So look out friends of mine.. I might be getting noisier. 🤍️ 40 ❌ 05 Jul 2024, 11:09:55 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I believe that all this effort into meditation has rewired my brain to handle things extremely smoothly. To not allow negative thinking and feeling to enter my mind, so topics I struggled with before I now handle with relative ease. I guess that's the power of meditation, it can wipe out negative thinking to a fair extent. How good is that. 🤍️ 3 ❌ 03 Jul 2024, 12:12:04 PM: 🌐️ Leo: My past self wanted to know, where will I land? And well it seems I've landed somewhere very calm, without strong interests just accepting things and being okay with whatever happens. Plus, perhaps more insight into the fact I am a bit asexual and aromantic, but hard to say where I am on the "spectrum". So my anxious obsession is more or less over, I don't have romantic feelings I think, but still my feelings are a bit of a mystery as to what they will do next. I guess I will just have to explore things as best I can. 🤍️ 96 ❌ 30 Jun 2024, 10:49:04 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Its like either I haven't had enough life experiences to show me I am more straight than I think I am, or I actually have had and I am more ace than I think I am. It's really bloody difficult to tell, after recent life experiences and I feel so desperate to understand it but then I go back to thinking, it's okay if I don't I will still be okay in life. 🤍️ 13 ❌ 28 Jun 2024, 12:39:29 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's true that the big social media platforms like Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram have become overwhelming with recommended content and advertisements, making it difficult for users to see what they actually want. Mastodon and federated social media have the potential to change this by giving users more control over their feeds, but they have struggled to gain widespread adoption. It's possible that the fediverse could eventually become a major player in the social media landscape, but it will be an uphill battle against the entrenched dominance of the big platforms. However, with growing concerns about privacy and the spread of misinformation on mainstream social media, there may be a shift in user behavior that could benefit alternative platforms like Mastodon. Ultimately, the future of social media is uncertain, but it's clear that there is a demand for more user-friendly and decentralized platforms. It will be interesting to see how things evolve in the coming years and whether the fediverse can overcome its challenges to become a viable alternative to the current giants. 🤍️ 10 ❌ 28 Jun 2024, 12:39:29 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Facebook is shit because they've flooded it with garbage recommended stuff. Twitter is shit because Elon and co are taking it backwards in several ways. Threads has not quite gained the same network effect for whatever reason. Instagram is also a bit shit but seems to show relevant posts a little better than Facebook. But it's all photos and videos, no text, events, etc. Mastodon and federated social media have the potential to democratise everything and give the user control of what they see, which would lead to it being the best platform. But no one is adopting it for various reasons, network effect and perhaps difficulty in understanding it. I'm hoping that the fediverse gains more traction because it would be a slap in the face to Facey and Twitter. They might just catch up. Or they might die. They have the resources to catch up but who knows how it might play out. My pessimistic theory is that Facebook and Twitter and Instagram will remain dominant for a long time sadly, they might get a little better if anything but the Fediverse has a difficult battle if it wants to gain that network effect. Though I think everyone is a bit tired of social media in general, including fediverse. There are few enthusiasts like me. So everyone just goes for the easy option, occasionally catch up on Facebook or whatever. Dunno how to change that but who knows what series of events might happen to change the status quo. An accidental and or intentional transition to another default app. 🤍️ 51 ❌ 25 Jun 2024, 04:15:49 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I dunno I have bumps, it's a part of my life like back pain or something, but I can sort of improve it with effort such as meditation and stuff. Unlike back pain which can be difficult and sometimes expensive to fix, MH is actually not too expensive and doesn't have to be too difficult. Fast forward one more year of meditating and stuff, where will I be? 🤍️ 43 ❌ 25 Jun 2024, 03:59:13 PM: 🌐️ Leo: My poor brain has been through a lot, perhaps a mental health thing, perhaps related to a combination of difficult things in the world plus social and cognitive challenges to adapt. It is far past time I dealt with the ongoing issues my brain has by putting in a lot of effort into my MH and I have been and I still have issues now and then but these issues are different it seems I keep chasing pain or something. But well the solution is to keep at it, I think probably more than anything the meditation, mindfulness, and other misc approaches to my MH have been working but very slowly. Maybe it is time to take a break from chasing pain, but eh, it seems I always want to solve a problem even if it's painful in the process. 🤍️ 91 ❌ 24 Jun 2024, 03:43:35 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Anyway it's been a wild day today where I maybe have made in important step forward in life towards something better perhaps. 🤍️ 26 ❌ 24 Jun 2024, 02:43:43 PM: 🌐️ Leo: With all this meditation it has been overall improving my ability to deal with difficult situations but recently I've just fallen apart and I'm feeling awful about everything and now I can't use my Monday to do gamedev because I am super unfocused. Another Monday wasted but oh well I have to put myself first before gamedev. And that's the thing, my brain is a potato quite often despite what people might think and I just can't be this amazing super productive do-it-all person with all my interests. It's annoying but I would rather have wellbeing than work mindlessly on my projects such that they burn me out. I mean I like my projects when my brain is up to it, but it often isn't outside of my working hours, and what I am starting to realise is that I perhaps have a very limited number of functional working hours in the week which are mostly taken up by paying work to put a roof over my head. Ah well I'm never going to give up on gamedev, my electronics projects, etc however progress might slow to snails pace now and then. 🤍️ 86 ❌ 23 Jun 2024, 11:05:20 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Getting to this point where I can ask a very important question has taken a long time due to a few factors, one being difficult communication channels, one being perhaps healing a wound that was deeper than I thought, and another is the time to study myself with self awareness. Another being due to limited life experiences - this is all new to me and I have to figure it all out on my own, with no other significant person close to me to help. But I think I'm pretty close and that's an achievement, past me would be happy I suppose. 🤍️ 63 ❌ 23 Jun 2024, 12:32:10 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Pretty soon I am going to have to ask the big question that could dramatically alter my future potentially. It's possibly a lot of pressure on one person but if I never ask this question I might likely deeply regret it. I may never discover a side of myself, or it might take a long time and by then I might be old and crusty. Leaving things too late could be missing out on nice things for too long. And even if the answer is no, it's a helpful step forwards. 🤍️ 5 ❌ 22 Jun 2024, 02:54:45 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Since starting to work 14 or more hours per week, and adjusting my sleep schedule to get up before 8am, my energy levels have dropped, I've been over sleeping at least once per week, I've fallen behind on most of my projects and games, and I'm still struggling to service clients outside of my main one. My mental health is okay which is the main thing, but I'm just not happy with the above. Fixing it is a slow process that requires extreme level schedule optimisation but I'll get there. As well as losing weight, it requires an extreme approach of carefully choosing what I eat. So yeah 14 hours hasn't burned me out but it has given me some new difficult challenges to solve which may take a while to solve before I can go back to my old life of having time for things and a sleep schedule that was more consistent at least. 🤍️ 76 ❌ 22 Jun 2024, 01:16:02 AM: 🌐️ Leo: If I have to become some kind of mystical spiritual entity in order to become better friends with someone, I WILL DO IT if it means transforming into a new person with a new soul and personality, so that a friendship can grow beyond specific circumstances, yeah it's sorta what I've had to do to get this far and I still feel I'm not having great success. But ah well even if this specific friendship doesn't flourish like it would have if circumstances were different.. I ought to still get nice things from my efforts into transforming myself into a spiritual entity from another dimension. Like some new friends and better social skills. Yay. 🤍️ 46 ❌ 20 Jun 2024, 01:40:03 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm in uncharted territory. New feelings, new possibilities. Not strong feelings but far less anxiety and complicated feelings I used to have. Means I can progress things more than before, but where will it lead me to? It might not change much in the short term, but perhaps my medium-long term prospects might now change drastically thanks to the effort I've put into my mental health and self awareness. But I don't know what that new future for me might look or feel like. It might not be that exciting, or it might be a very good thing. 🤍️ 71 ❌ 17 Jun 2024, 04:18:29 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I mean I dunno maybe there are a few reasons I've been hell-bent on self improvement. One being that it's the opposite of suffering which I went through, the other being that my friends who left Tas should come back and the other being that my F you to those who neglected me is to miraculously get better rather than continuing to suffer. To show them the difference that they helped create. 🤍️ 9 ❌ 17 Jun 2024, 03:56:24 PM: 🌐️ Leo: What if this self improvement journey I've been on since 2019 I was doing it for one person? One person who I'm trying to win over to come back to Tas. Maybe, I don't know because it's not what I'm consciously thinking, maybe it's the subconscious. But at least I'm benefiting from it. 🤍️ 10 ❌ 17 Jun 2024, 03:41:42 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Becoming the chillest version of myself is required to solve an emotional problem. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 15 Jun 2024, 05:31:22 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Maybe fluctuating between romantic and platonic is not that weird and uncommon, nor overly exciting as I imagined. Normal relationships are like that, platonic and romantic alternating I imagine but I don't know. Because I missed out on things due to being mentally ill. But it still might be important to express that I have feelings, but also say that I'm happy to stay friends and it shouldn't get in the way of friendship too much. It might be painful sometimes but not that often and I'm a grown up I can work on my feelings. I dunno I just want to grow as a person somehow and learn and thrive and be a better, happier person. 🤍️ 31 ❌ 15 Jun 2024, 04:42:53 PM: 🌐️ Leo: As per below, my feelings are very very weird. It's like they one minute make me almost want to cry over someone I want to see more, the next minute, it's all good and this person is just a friend. Switching between platonic and romantic within seconds - that's just so weird. I want to explore this but opportunities are extremely limited. So all I can do is meditate a lot. I keep meditating and my brain is just a weird guy and it does stuff that doesn't seem normal. Neurodivergent sure but when it comes to feelings, it's particularly weird. This could be the start of something rather interesting and maybe exciting. But all I need is a female friend to help me explore them. 🤍️ 96 ❌ 14 Jun 2024, 11:34:24 AM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: As humans, our emotions can often be a mystery to us. They can arise seemingly out of nowhere and affect us in ways we may not fully comprehend. It is important to explore and understand our feelings, even if they seem distant or confusing. By taking the time to introspect and examine our emotions, we can gain valuable insight into ourselves and our relationships with others. This process can lead to personal growth and a deeper understanding of our needs and desires. Talking about feelings can be a vulnerable and uncomfortable process, but it can also be incredibly liberating. By opening up and sharing our emotions with others, we can foster deeper connections and create space for genuine understanding and empathy. So, embrace the complexity of your feelings and allow yourself the opportunity to unravel the puzzle within. Your journey towards self-discovery and self-awareness can lead to a greater sense of fulfillment and contentment in your life. 🤍️ 79 ❌ 14 Jun 2024, 11:34:24 AM: 🌐️ Leo: The nature of my feelings are very complex and unique. They come and go, for reasons I don't understand. Say I have some feelings for someone, wouldn't it be important to explore these feelings, even if they are very far away? For my self growth and understanding. It's like a puzzle I feel strongly compelled to solve. With the ulterior motive that I might have nice things come from it. But maybe it's finally time to talk about feelings, the very weird nature of them. For one reason above many, which is that I just want to understand myself better. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 09:37:26 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It's funny how far I've come recently but it appears that no one is celebrating it. Ah well my own wellness is it's own reward, but does anyone silently notice? 🤍️ 63 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 02:36:43 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm very unlikely to leave social media as it is another way I actually socialise with people and form positive interactions from time to time. I can't look at it and say, no this is a useless space. Because it is sometimes good, sometimes a space for healthy expression and social interaction. I get positive things out of it. For anyone wanting to leave social media for a long period, it might be because they are unable to form positive social connections with it, however hopefully they are able to in the real world. Don't forget the positive side of social media, keeping in touch with friends and a space for self-expression. It's often seen as this negative thing that's not very healthy, but I believe it is possible to use it in a more healthy way. Maybe not very healthy, and real world relationships will always be better. But I think you can extract positive experiences out of it. Which by leaving the platform you are shutting yourself out of that. Sure, there are plenty of downsides and perhaps the cons outweigh the pros, but it all depends on how you use it, whether it's optimistically, or you are just unlucky and there are too many negatives that get in the way. Personally I find the only main cons are addictiveness and the often insufficient social rewards you get. But addictiveness is manageable and the low social rewards are better than not using the platform at all. Maybe others have very different views, but I guess I would say my views are optimistic. 🤍️ 22 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 12:53:24 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I don't want my friends to feel guilty of something they didn't know about. But that's the way it is, and why. It's taken very long time for me to look after myself very well and gain self awareness to know what to do, on my own. It didn't have to be on my own but well at least I have got here. Instead of going on in life not having this self awareness for the rest of my life. If my friends care about my happiness, they will help me make better friends with women in particular who have common interests or are quite neuro divergent. Help to bridge those gaps. And there are multiple. 🤍️ 84 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 11:02:59 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I think really my lack of good female friends in my life is probably thanks to my male friends not understanding me better and not helping me make these friendships - even with people who might not be female any more which is funny. Sure, I have had to have some autonomy, and I've gained that now thankfully, but in the past I didn't have too much of it and I needed help. I needed help making friends with women with similar interests. I didn't get it and as such here I am living by myself. 🤍️ 67 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 08:59:51 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Heck, maybe I could try dating apps with the self awareness that I would most likely be using it just to make friends. But I'm still focusing on my existing friends because I like them and care about the friendship that I have with them. 🤍️ 2 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 08:52:53 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Relating to my post below. Making new female friends is hard, but focusing on the existing ones is a heck of a lot easier and it's what I am going to do going forward, even if it doesn't go anywhere. Knowing now that I build connections with women on a platonic basis first for potentially a very long time, means that it's totally okay to keep pursuing friendships with women even in relationships, as I can always just step back if I start developing subtle feelings, but can appreciate the platonic friendship that developed beforehand, is better than nothing. 🤍️ 35 ❌ 13 Jun 2024, 08:49:04 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Just had a short rant this morning about my friends and women. I don't need to make new friends, and it appears that I build platonic relationships with women before they become anything else. I have little motivation to meet new friends as I have quite a few already, I'm happy with the amount of friends I have. So looking for new friends, and then hoping they are female is outside of my motivation levels. I *could* try dating apps, but pt up a big disclaimer that I'm mainly looking to just make friends with women with similar interests. But well I suspect that might not be very effective. So, for now, I guess my plan is to continue to focus on my existing friends, including a few female friends, even if it never goes anywhere serious. It's just how I work and how I am, someone else can step in and help me if they can. 🤍️ 38 ❌ 10 Jun 2024, 11:51:12 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I have ranted and rambled here, and other places, with one common regular goal, of improving my social life, with my male and female friends. LOTS of words, thoughts, all spewing out in the hopes that it will improve things, that people will start talking to me, that some of my better female friends might become closer friends perhaps. And some of that has been useful in making me make realisations, like I have to put in a lot of effort and that's just the way it is. And also since working on my mental health that my mood has been improving which is conducive to better relationships. But it just seems like so much thinking to solve a simple problem. Why? has it been so mania inducing taken up so much of my brains processing time in order to gain something I want. Why hasn't the universe just thrown someone my way, or one of my friends taken a hint of sorts from my constant obvious social struggles. I will never know. I guess I am just cursed to continue rambling to try to fix things. I think things are improving and things are okay overall. But I can still see the problems clearly. Which gets me going. I'm only just trying to fill the gaps in my life where people should be. And they are big gaps. While I am filling them, there are many better ways of doing so, such as having a best friend, a partner or some close friends that I hang out with regularly. To get that, it seems like mission impossible. 🤍️ 81 ❌ 09 Jun 2024, 06:43:18 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I have to admit I do feel a bit unloved and with this mindfulness I can see how my thoughts are the product of being unloved by everyone except my parents. Maybe I'm trying to change that finally but far out it's difficult. Months of lengthy meditation and walks in nature and working part time and reflection in my diaries and I'm still feeling a bit neglected. Just because I am a bit different. I find it difficult forming relationships and my social skills are a bit behind. My interests are mostly for technology. All this adding up to people giving me the cold shoulder outside of social events. It's been on myind for years, this social neglect and it pains me. But my thinking is that if I throw all this self improvement stuff at myself maybe people will think to talk to me out of the blue. Rather than it being me putting in the efforts out of the blue. And maybe I might form a relationship with a female friend. But I really can't expect either of those things to happen in the near future. The least I can do is look after my mental health extremely well. 🤍️ 45 ❌ 09 Jun 2024, 01:13:02 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I think I finally understand myself fairly well. It's a bit like trying to understand the universe. This mysterious thing that we're trying to build the best models of understanding. I may well be "asexual" but that's not necessarily the end of the road for me. I believe that I build *platonic* friendships first before they become something else. Which means I am in it for the friendship to start with, and over time, perhaps years, it might turn into stronger or different emotions of "love". So, the women that I want to me must be compatible friends first. I don't get crushes, I don't feel strong sexual attraction or desires. Random sexually attractive and affectionate woman X means nothing to me if we can't play board games or talk about our shared interests. And there is someone who I know shares a lot of interests in common, who I always believed was a good fit for me, likely is a very good fit for me at least as a strong friend, but possibly as a partner as well she used to live in Hobart but now lives elsewhere and maybe she will come back and if so, what might come from that is a special kind of friendship that would be very interesting to explore. Different to the usual relationships where boy and girl are in love. Some unique feelings that very few get to experience. But I dunno it's all speculation at the moment. I just have this belief that she's an exceptionally good fit for me as a friend - where the feelings might evolve over time for me at least. Anyway labels such as asexual might be a bit confusing as it implies an strong disinterest in sex and romance, but maybe not. It all depends on how friendships and relationships develop over time, which sadly I have not had the opportunity to explore with many women. And let's not get started talking about dating.. 🤍️ 66 ❌ 08 Jun 2024, 08:56:21 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Today is the day I a) go to a "Dealing with difficult people" workshop and b) come out to my parents about my aseuality. Should be a fun day. 🤍️ 88 ❌ 06 Jun 2024, 03:21:39 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I don't know what I am going to do with this wedding dress accessory I got at a wedding recently, it's supposed to be a sign that I will get married next but me thinks highly unlikely, I'm not sure I ever want to get married but we will see, maybe I meet someone 🤍️ 55 ❌ 06 Jun 2024, 03:18:28 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I went to Working it Out today and I think more or less confirming that I am a bit asexual which is important to know. 🤍️ 93 ❌ 06 Jun 2024, 03:16:14 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I don't see myself so much as a "late bloomer" although I can see why people see me that way. I see myself as more of a complex mental health survivor. Only reason I'm blooming now is that I have addressed my mental health issues that I have had for a long time in my late teens and twenties. 🤍️ 13 ❌ 03 Jun 2024, 12:26:50 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Meditation hasn't made my emotions go away, it's only made them more real and clear. I still have some strong feelings that I might need to break down and work on but that's why I'm not going to stop meditating. Seems like the only healthy response to a lifetime of dysfunction and complexity left untreated. 🤍️ 69 ❌ 03 Jun 2024, 11:32:00 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Yes, my friends leaving Tas have caused me significant grief, but only exacerbating existing mental health issues which weren't dealt with properly at a younger age. If my mental health issues had been dealt with I likely wouldn't have had such neuroticism over my friends leaving Tas. But here we are. I am trying to do my best to work on my mental health such that these grievances can settle down and they mostly have been but I have been through them still now. It's like a mark on me. But I can heal these wounds. And as I have been healing the wounds, I am still wondering how I can help my friends get over *ther* grievances for people in Tas by using compassion and forgiveness. Something that can be obtained through a lot of self care. Which I'm still working on, but I know it can take a long time. 🤍️ 15 ❌ 02 Jun 2024, 02:14:31 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It says something doesn't it, that someone who leaves Tasmania for reasons relating to personal conflicts, causes me pain still after almost 7 years. I think it's because it's not a very sound reason for leaving, and that these friends mean a lot to me. It has exacerbated my mental health recovery, that's for sure. I can't move on maybe because I feel that there's something I can do about it. And I'm now doing something about it which makes me feel like I am doing something about the pain, making the pain feel better. I'm going to this "dealing with difficult people class" to maybe pick up some skills to help R and P get along. Among other reasons, but it does feel like the right thing to do, helping me heal a very deep and complex wound. 🤍️ 70 ❌ 02 Jun 2024, 01:54:07 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm sitting here at the breakfast table thinking about my friends who have left Tas, biting away at Allens lollies to reduce the pain I feel for them having left. 🤍️ 31 ❌ 02 Jun 2024, 01:52:05 PM: 🌐️ Leo: When any of my friends leave Tasmania, I'm like WHYYY It's losing a friend, it's hurting Tasmania, it's someone choosing to go live somewhere more "comfortable" or "career fulfilling" which for the first one is highly debatable, the second one well there's this thing called running your own business. It often does work down here in Tas, maybe not always but often. I am stuck here forever that's a fact, I will never move. For various reasons I won't go into now. But who's here with me? Why is it that some of my best friends have left Tas? It hurts me it really does, in some ways you can never imagine. But I stay strong, I am now meditating 30 minutes per day mainly triggered one person came back then left. I still would like to have superpowers that could give me the ability to strongly convince my friends to come back. Maybe I will get them if I work hard on it. 🤍️ 66 ❌ 29 May 2024, 04:12:50 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: Some people may not like Mac computers due to their limitations in terms of RAM and storage, as well as the relatively higher cost compared to other options. Additionally, some users prefer the flexibility and customization options offered by Linux distros over macOS. The decision to not like a Mac computer can also be influenced by personal preferences and experiences with other operating systems and hardware options. Ultimately, it's important to choose a computer that best suits your needs and preferences. 🤍️ 98 ❌ 29 May 2024, 04:12:50 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Why don't I like the Mac? Well limited to 16GB of RAM, 1TB storage. macOS is not that amazing and I enjoy using Linux distros. The Framework laptop will last for a long time, whereas this Mac if I stay with Mac will only last about 2-3 years before the need for better specs. 🤍️ 16 ❌ 29 May 2024, 04:11:16 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: The Framework laptop sounds like a great choice for your needs! It's always exciting to upgrade to a new device that better suits your purposes. Waiting for your tax return to make the purchase is a smart move to ensure you have the funds available. In the meantime, you can start preparing for the switch by researching and getting familiar with the Framework laptop. And don't worry about your current Macbook Air, it can still serve as a backup device or for other tasks in the meantime. Enjoy your new laptop when you get it! 🤍️ 81 ❌ 29 May 2024, 04:11:16 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I really want to get a Framework laptop now. Turns out it has a GPU powerful enough for LLMs such as Jan.ai and it would run Linux of course. Now, I guess I just have to wait until *after* the tax return to get it. This M3 Macbook Air might not end up lasting too long as my primary device. I don't even have Xcode installed currently after a few months of use. 🤍️ 31 ❌ 29 May 2024, 03:16:06 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm finding it mildly disturbing that over 50 people can view my Instagram story, meanwhile only a small handful actually click like on a similar post I make about a retro game. Maybe not as many people actually browse Facebook or Facebook is less good at getting my posts out there. But still it's a weird phenomenon these Instagram stories and I am starting to get less enthusiastic about using them. Maybe time for a long break? 🤍️ 93 ❌ 28 May 2024, 01:36:17 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It's been a bit over a year of this blog and coincidentally it's been yet another interesting times. I'm going to have to do something with this data at some point. 🤍️ 99 ❌ 27 May 2024, 10:12:44 AM: 🌐️ Leo: The in house concert I went to last night for Tilley and Co was really nice. I went along to test my comfort zone, and I was nervous, but what I ended up experiencing was making a new friend and listening to some extremely talented musicians. It's amazing the talent in little old Hobart. We are not a city of low value. And also an opportunity to test my feelings for a friend. I was a bit weird at first but overall no I didn't develop a crush or anything like that lol. But I was able to articulate to Tilley that I liked her music and the whole performance. Which I don't think I've ever said to her before sadly. My way of catching up with her, listening to her music and saying it was good. Maybe not the lengthy conversations I've had with others I've been catching up, but still feels satisfying to me. 🤍️ 63 ❌ 25 May 2024, 05:02:04 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's great that you're taking the initiative to reach out to your friends online and make an effort to catch up with them. It's not uncommon for people to be busy and slow to respond, especially with the constant distractions of everyday life. Just remember to be patient and understanding with your friends, as they may have other commitments or obligations that are occupying their time. Keep up the effort and continue to strengthen those connections with your friends. Quality time spent together is always worth the wait. 🤍️ 77 ❌ 25 May 2024, 05:02:04 PM: 🌐️ Leo: After years of being too shy to reach out to my friends online as a kid, I now have the ability and am doing so regularly, however I find that many people are quite unresponsive and slow. It's like yay I have this new ability but now people are always busy. Sigh. Oh well catch ups with friends is going really well. 🤍️ 4 ❌ 24 May 2024, 11:13:37 AM: 🌐️ Leo: The two most important things in life are your health and your social relationships. Here in Tas, I can get both thanks to the things that are here. Like specialty gyms and the good amount of nice friends. 🤍️ 49 ❌ 24 May 2024, 11:09:38 AM: 🌐️ Leo: But I mean I can't help but think I am doing okay in life, I could be worse. I could have regressed, I could still be suffering from anxiety and depression in a big way,. Heck, even if they do come back (fantasy mode engaged) I will still continue to work on my health in a big way (fantasy mode disengaged for safety reasons). I have to sort of pat myself on the back for getting this far. I think I still have a way to go but at least I am okay overall. And have been for most of this time. Sure, 2017 was a bit of a bump, but everyone goes through stuff. It might be the worse thing that ever happens to me if I am careful, which is a mostly good thing. My message to my friends outside of Tas is, simply come back. It's alright here. Not as bad as you think. If my schizophrenia can be treated well here, it must be okay. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 23 May 2024, 09:28:30 AM: 🌐️ Leo: It's schizophrenia awareness week and I feel like I'm in a position to say some things about it to help reduce the negative stigma and improve awareness of a hidden disability. Some might know, I have schizophrenia. It is something that might mean different things to different people. It is different for each person, everyone has different symptoms and severity of symptoms. However someone can have schizophrenia and still live a normal healthy life. If it's treated. Yes, it can suck quite a bit. Even if treated it can come back in regression now and then. The symptoms are things like paranoia, delusions, voices, hallucinations. They are not fun. Most of the time, now I have it treated well, I am alright and don't experience strong symptoms that often. However sometimes it does regress a little. And while I was undiagnosed for a long time, most of those symptoms were only moderate and not severe. They can get very nasty under bad environmental conditions, such as stress and social isolation. I have put a lot of effort into shaping my life such that I have the opportunity to work on my mental health, such as reducing my workload, going for weekly walks in nature, meditating a lot, going to the gym, catching up with family and friends, etc. I am always trying to work on my mental health. And it's working overall. It can be difficult to pick it up in people, but common visible symptoms include rigidness, quietness, erratic behaviour, other signs of anxiety and depression (such as alcoholism and addiction), social isolation, a lack of interest in hobbies, difficulty in finding work. It can also show up in addition to other neurodivergent conditions like ADHD, autism, bipolar, etc. I think I have reversed a lot of the visible symptoms, and my inner thinking has changed dramatically. But it has taken a long time. Although I think I can still improve. Awareness of my condition has given me the opportunity to almost completely remove the symptoms through my efforts into mental health. 🤍️ 80 ❌ 22 May 2024, 05:15:18 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm thinking, there has to be a better way to spread awareness of schizophrenia than Facebook posts. Flourish? Or whatever they're called now. It might be the main way. 🤍️ 16 ❌ 22 May 2024, 12:36:20 PM: 🌐️ Leo: A lot goes on in my head, more than 99% of people realise. After some serious mental health issues, recurring mental health issues, social issues, other issues, it fills my head with anxiety, frustration, mania, etc. Now I would talk to someone about stuff but my psychologist I only see once per 2 months or so and my Mum I haven't quite built up that kind of relationship with. Maybe I can but it's hard for some reason. Anyway this blog is better than nothing. I have so much to rant about and get out of my head, it's better to write it down somewhere than let it stay in my head. Talking about it is even better and I do that sometimes but not often. I think though this has helped and especially now I am starting to feel much less rambly and stuff. It might not be super effective help but it's some help. 🤍️ 44 ❌ 22 May 2024, 09:55:16 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Many of my private posts here over the last 6 months or so have been about interest in a girl, mental health and sexuality. It's been a weird time, and maybe this micro blog has helped me understand myself better. As well as get stuff off my chest without it building up too much. I think my future will be interesting now that I have some more self awareness, mental health/clarity and less social anxiety. I might improve my friendships overall. Improving myself overall. 🤍️ 78 ❌ 09 May 2024, 06:54:13 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It all started when I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. The weight of the world seemed to be crushing me, and no amount of therapy or medication seemed to alleviate my suffering. I felt like I was drowning in darkness, unable to find my way out. But one day, a tragic event shook me to my core. A dear friend of mine lost their battle with mental illness, and I realized that if I didn't make a change, I would suffer the same fate. It was a wake-up call that I couldn't ignore. I made a vow to myself that I would do whatever it took to overcome my demons, no matter how difficult or painful the journey may be. I started therapy more diligently, practiced mindfulness and meditation daily, and sought out alternative forms of healing such as yoga and Reiki. As I delved deeper into my self-improvement journey, something miraculous happened. I began to feel lighter, happier, and more at peace with myself. The darkness that had consumed me for so long started to lift, and I could see a glimmer of hope on the horizon. But it wasn't until I stumbled upon a hidden power within myself that things truly began to change. I discovered that I possessed superhuman abilities – strength, speed, and the power to heal others with a touch. It was as if I had become a real-life Superman, capable of conquering any obstacle in my path. With my newfound powers, I set out to not only cure my own mental illness but to help others who were suffering as well. I became a beacon of light and hope in a world that was often filled with despair, using my abilities to bring healing and joy to all those around me. In the end, it was my journey of self-improvement and self-discovery that ultimately saved me from the depths of my mental illness. I had become my own hero, conquering my demons and embracing the light within myself. And though my journey was long and difficult, I emerged stronger and more resilient than ever before. 🤍️ 18 ❌ 09 May 2024, 06:54:13 PM: 🌐️ Leo: My story is one where tremendous self improvement is the only way out of horrible mental illness. But if a tragedy that I have to become Superman to cure my disease. 🤍️ 4 ❌ 09 May 2024, 05:40:20 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's hard to say for sure without knowing your friends personally. Some friends are very observant and will notice small changes like a haircut right away, while others might not pay as much attention. If you want your friends to notice and say something, you could always bring it up in conversation or post a picture on social media to draw attention to your new haircut. Ultimately, it's important to remember that true friends will support and care for you no matter what, even if they don't always notice the small details. 🤍️ 90 ❌ 09 May 2024, 05:40:20 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I got a haircut today. Do I have the kind of friends who will notice and say something?? 🤍️ 65 ❌ 03 May 2024, 05:03:53 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I think maybe I've had ADHD but I have managed to get on top of it without medication.. These are valuable skills I can teach very close friends with ADHD.. 🤍️ 64 ❌ 16 Apr 2024, 07:29:53 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It sounds like Arch Linux may not be the best fit for you at the moment. Ubuntu is a solid choice with a more beginner-friendly approach and a larger community for support. However, if you're still interested in learning more about Arch Linux, you could try out a different Arch-based distribution like Manjaro, which offers a more user-friendly installation process and pre-configured tools. Ultimately, the best distribution is the one that works best for you and meets your needs. 🤍️ 55 ❌ 16 Apr 2024, 07:29:53 PM: 🌐️ Leo: First time I tried to install Arch Linux, it got interrupted while installing stuff, corrupted the package system and wouldn't boot. I fixed the boot but then managed to break the package system even more in an attempt to fix it. Second time trying to install Arch Linux, on first boot there was no network for no apparent reason. Yeah I don't think Arch Linux is for me.. I have this magic ability to break Linux distros. I can often fix them but it seems when I break Arch it breaks it in a devastating way. Back to Ubuntu? 🤍️ 92 ❌ 02 Apr 2024, 08:08:15 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Just like recovery, growth is not a linear path. I think I am more or less beyond recovery now but I am looking to go onwards and upwards but despite some milestones and cool stuff, some days feel like a step back. Which I think is okay, you just have to have faith that there path forward will be trending upwards. 🤍️ 63 ❌ 01 Apr 2024, 12:30:42 PM: 🌐️ Leo: It was getting really depressing, the only thing I could do on my Chromebook was post here, it felt like anything else was a massive effort, waiting for things to load.. But now with my Surface Go 3 running Linux, I can actually do other stuff, like check emails, Facebook, Instagram will give me notifications, Todoist, etc Now this will just be one small part of the morning routine that might not be a part sometimes. So probably less posts, and more back in Journey. 🤍️ 31 ❌ 01 Apr 2024, 01:29:36 AM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: I'm sorry to hear that your sleep schedule is feeling off! It can be frustrating when our bodies don't seem to cooperate with our desired bedtime. Have you tried any relaxation techniques or bedtime routines to help with falling asleep and staying asleep? It's important to try and establish a consistent sleep schedule to help regulate your body's internal clock. I hope you're able to get some rest soon! 🤍️ 10 ❌ 01 Apr 2024, 01:29:36 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Last night I went to bed at 8:30pm! And slept the next day around 11am.. Tonight I am up at 1:30am feeling super awake despite the herbal tea.. My sleep rhythm thingo is stuffed for sure.. 🤍️ 99 ❌ 01 Apr 2024, 01:15:50 AM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's just too toxic and overwhelming, I need a break from it. I feel like I can actually be myself and engage with others in a positive way on Mastodon and Threads. So for now, those are my go-to platforms for posting and connecting with others. Instagram is fine for sharing photos and videos, but it doesn't offer the same level of engagement and connection as Mastodon and Threads do. As for Bluesky and SpaceHey, they just don't hold my interest as much as the other platforms do. Overall, I'm happy with my current choices for social media and will continue to use Mastodon, Threads, and Facebook for now. Who knows, maybe I'll discover some new platforms in the future that I'll enjoy even more. But for now, these are my happy places for posting and sharing my thoughts and experiences online. 🤍️ 96 ❌ 01 Apr 2024, 01:15:50 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Yeah, currently Mastodon, Threads and Facebook are my happy places for posting stuff now. NOT Twitter/X. Instagram is kinda okay for photos and sending reels and stuff but not great for "self expression" as such though maybe I can get creative.. Bluesky is boring, SpaceHey is too niche. Mastodon is full of smart interesting people I've never met before but still enjoy their posts. Threads is trying to be Twitter reimagined for the better and it's good but not really catching on well with friends I know.. Facebook is the old fallback that everyone is on but I'm getting very tired of it.. It's full of "suggested" spam, people are posting a lot less and it's getting more and more full of older people.. And Twitter I'm trying to forget about for now.. 🤍️ 73 ❌ 24 Jan 2024, 11:46:04 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I swear I have ADHD or something similar. My attention keeps shifting. It’s nice this new mindfulness realising the mental conditions I likely have. All of them? 🤍️ 40 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 05:42:40 PM: 🌐️ Leo: And perhaps I don't put enough work into myself.. so I think I will put more work into myself in future...... 🤍️ 29 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 05:21:14 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I am a high maintenance person.. I require a lot of work in order to work properly.. 🤍️ 98 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 02:33:48 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Chillout music hits different when all you've been listening to is chillout music for 3 weeks or so 🤍️ 6 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 02:28:12 PM: 🌐️ Leo: One of the oldest and wisest lessons in life.. Forgiveness is a good thing. 🤍️ 57 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 02:25:42 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Sure, lots of older (and dorky) people are on Mastodon, but what's wrong with having older friends? It's a pretty admirable thing to have friends much older than you. Sources of wisdom and knowledge, good for the brain. Some people don't want good things for the brain perhaps. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 02:18:31 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Threads seems alright too, mainly because it's flooded with brands and celebs all having a nice time.. With not too much bickering from people with uneducated opinions and meme spamming 🤍️ 23 ❌ 11 Dec 2023, 02:17:01 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Mastodon is the nice place on the Internet.. Anyone that says otherwise is a masochist. 🤍️ 0 ❌ 29 Oct 2023, 01:55:20 PM: 🌐️ Leo: If there's one thing I have learned recently, is that I really am not a great DJ or music selector person. My nerdy taste in music isn't for everyone. Part of me really wants to make sure the music at parties is on point and good memories can be made. But in practice, I end up essentially embarrassing myself with music choices that really only suit me and maybe my brother. Unless I can practice my playlist making, I think it's time I just let go of being party DJ and leave it up to the other party guests to select more topical and more broadly likeable music. 🤍️ 47 ❌ 16 Sep 2023, 11:30:25 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: I understand your frustration with finding a social media platform that suits your needs. It can be challenging when different platforms have their own unique dynamics and limitations. It seems like you prefer a more casual and expressive space to share and socialize, which can be different from the culture of many existing platforms. One possibility could be exploring smaller, niche communities that align more closely with your interests and desired atmosphere. These communities might exist within larger platforms or even on independent websites or forums. By finding like-minded individuals with similar interests, you may be able to create a more personalized and comfortable online space for yourself. Additionally, focusing on your own blog can be a great way to express yourself freely and interact with others who resonate with your content. Blogs allow for more control over the content and conversation, and you can foster your own community there. While it can be frustrating when mainstream platforms don't meet your needs, it's worth considering that building a social media platform that caters to everyone's preferences is a complex task. However, with time and continued innovation, there may be new platforms or features that better align with your desired online experience. 🤍️ 86 ❌ 16 Sep 2023, 11:30:25 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I still struggle with social media, now more than ever. Twitter, Facebook, Mastodon, Instagram, Threads, BeReal. There is no one place that really works for me. Not even Mastodon, not any more. I want a space I can just be expressive and socialise in a more simple and upbeat way, but Mastodon just isn't it. I try to do that there, but it just doesn't quite pan out and isn't really the right space for it. Twitter and Threads are, but I mean, Twitter is an Ex-Bird and Threads is not really taking off for more personal friends stuff. So I am left with nothing that suits me really. Except this custom made site of course. But this site is way more personal and anything goes, so lots of things goes. I want to say Mastodon is anything goes, but nah not really. It's an esteemed community of thoughtful posts that each seem to have a lot of seriousness and determination behind them. Not to say I am incapable of that.. but when I see a text box and a "post" button to the world I get a bit excited and just post about what springs to mind, which is often a lot of personal stuff. I treat Mastodon a lot like the old Twitter and is that such a bad thing? I don't think so but it seems that I am a bit rare like that. Don't we want Mastodon to be the Twitter killer? It's got to start acting like one I think.. Anyway.. Social media perhaps isn't quite for me in general.. Not to say I can't make good posts at all, I can every now and then. But my general approach to it is not really compatible with most platforms. It's annoying and really shouldn't be a problem in 2023, but it is. With so many "post to the void" apps like Twitter now, why can't I find one that works smoothly for me? It's a bit messed up really. Why can't tech bros make a simple freaking social app that works for someone like me who just wants a good mix of RL friends and Internet friends, in one place? That could have been Twitter, but it kinda blew up when Musk took over. It's a wasteland now. Wasted potential. Mastodon doesn't seem to want to replace it, or so it seems, it's not acting like it. Threads is a cheap clone, Bluesky is for hipsters who drink pumpkin spice lattes and listen to vinyl. Where do I go? Just here I guess, and my blog. It's not much but it's something for now. 🤍️ 86 ❌ 16 Sep 2023, 11:17:37 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: Ending your drinking alone on a Friday night for physical health reasons is a commendable decision. While it may feel like you're losing a part of your social life, remember that there are many other ways to socialize and connect with others that don't involve alcohol. Consider exploring alternative activities or hobbies that can provide enjoyment and social interaction without the negative effects of excessive drinking. You could join a club or group that aligns with your interests, take up a new sport or exercise routine, or even host non-alcoholic gatherings with friends and family. Remember, socializing is about the quality of connections and experiences, not necessarily the presence of alcohol. Give yourself the opportunity to discover new ways to have fun and build meaningful relationships. 🤍️ 0 ❌ 16 Sep 2023, 11:17:37 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Well that's it.. I've decided to end my drinking alone on a Friday night. Purely for physical health reasons (let alone mental health funnily enough). I can't find any decent low-calorie drinks that I can drink in larger quantities that I like. I won't be drinking beers any more because they're too high in calories. Nothing is left to drink regularly. No more getting drunk on Friday nights alone. I have been able to set a pretty firm limit that I can stick to, but it's still too unhealthy and too many calories or something I don't enjoy the taste of. I have alternative plans.. but I guess I would still prefer to drink if I can, but I can't see a goo way to. There goes the social life..? 🤍️ 21 ❌ 14 Sep 2023, 12:56:47 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: I understand your desire to socialize with friends on platforms where you already have connections. While Mastodon has its charm with a friendly community, it may not be as popular as Facebook and Twitter, which is why you may not find all your friends there. If you still want to engage with your existing friends on Mastodon, you can consider sharing your Mastodon profile or posts on your Facebook and Twitter accounts. This way, your friends who are interested can discover and join you on Mastodon. Additionally, you can also invite specific friends to join Mastodon and mention the benefits you find on the platform. Ultimately, it's important to remember that different social media platforms cater to different purposes and audiences. Exploring the unique aspects of Mastodon while staying connected with your friends on other platforms can provide a balanced social media experience. 🤍️ 4 ❌ 14 Sep 2023, 12:56:47 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I really like Mastodon, but wish more of my Facebook and Twitter friends were here. Yes, the community here and mutual followers are lovely people. But sometimes I want to use social media to socialise with the people I already know when I can’t do so in person (eg due to work and life constraints). To do that there is really just Facebook, which people don’t seem to like as much anymore. 🤍️ 79 ❌ 28 Aug 2023, 03:48:38 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It seems like you have a negative opinion about Disney and Disney Plus, particularly in regards to their content catering to a younger audience. You also mentioned feeling disappointed with Ahsoka, suggesting that the acting and writing were subpar, potentially attributing it to the actors/writers strike or Disney's focus on catering to children. 🤍️ 33 ❌ 28 Aug 2023, 03:48:38 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Disney and Disney plus has sadly become effectively just mindless entertainment for kids under 15 or so. Anyone older with actual taste in TV and movies, you are better off elsewhere.. Now anyway. It feels like in the last 12-18 months or so, they've succumbed to the idea of just becoming that, nothing better than just long videos for kids to watch, to keep them placated for their parents. A bit sad. Ahsoka was meh, could have been quite a lot better. Bot the acting and writing was quite poor. Possibly due to the actors/writers strike, possibly due to Disney becoming a kid pacifier service. Possibly a bit of both. 🤍️ 66 ❌ 04 Aug 2023, 01:18:06 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Part of the reason I’m contempt to stay here in Tasmania is because of friendships. I like to stick with the friends I’ve got down here rather than to toss them in the bin and go elsewhere. Friendship is a very strong tie. Now my friends aren’t perfect and overly wonderful. But they’re pretty compelling and there’s plenty of them. The force of friendship keeps me stable. For those that have left Tasmania, perhaps they simply haven’t built strong enough connections down here. But why is that I have to wonder. Why are my friendship connections so much stronger (despite my lack of talkativeness) than those who’ve made the decision to bail on the state or country. Maybe because I am a lot better at making - and importantly keeping friends. My friend making skills are superior. That has to be the reason I reckon. For those that left Tasmania, they’re just simply not as good at the whole friendship business as I am. Is my pretty sound theory. 🤍️ 93 ❌ 19 Jul 2023, 03:02:33 PM: 🌐️ Leo: ahh how unsurprising.. Threads has just become brand pages, just like Twitter, but maybe worse.. Sure there was a little bit of humans talking to humans but not any more it seems. Good old Mastodon is the refreshing change from all that, 'Hi I'm a brand page and I have a personality' nonsense that I don't really care for any more. It was funny for the first few times but now it's just getting sad, seeing the main interactions on Twitter, and now Threads be originating from brand pages. Brands that are in it for the *money* and not just as a social space. As someone who finds socialising online a lot easier than real life, Twitter was very compelling but turned out to be not the right place for it. And now Threads is just becoming more of the same.. Not that I expected it to steer far from that, but I was kinda hoping the 'algorithm' would favour a fair amount of human-human interactions, like Mastodon does. Nope. Threads is another Twitter. Why? 🤍️ 27 ❌ 14 Jul 2023, 09:39:22 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: Thank you for sharing your thoughts! It's great that you have found a way to express yourself through this platform. Keeping a personal blog can indeed be a wonderful way to share your thoughts and experiences with others while still maintaining a level of privacy. It's important to find a balance between being open and respecting your own boundaries. Enjoy the freedom of expressing yourself, and if you have any questions or need any assistance, feel free to ask! 🤍️ 88 ❌ 14 Jul 2023, 09:39:22 PM: 🌐️ Leo: This is a test post because most of my posts are quite personal and I don't really want to share them with the public too much - which I used to do on Twitter until I made this of course. A nice way to let my thoughts out, kind of like a personal diary that others can read some of the posts. See more details on the blog post. 🤍️ 50 ❌ 07 Jul 2023, 12:39:30 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It seems like you have already made up your mind about Threads and have found Mastodon to be a preferable platform for your social presence. It's understandable that you prefer the lesser competition from celebrities, brands, and viral posts on Mastodon, as well as the higher engagement you experience there. If you feel that Threads is going to be very similar to Twitter and will present the same issues that you encountered there, it makes sense for you to take a passive stance and not engage with it. Prioritizing your sanity and finding a platform that aligns better with your preferences and goals is a reasonable decision. Ultimately, the choice of which platform to use for your online presence is a personal one, and it's important to select the platform that best suits your needs and values. 🤍️ 85 ❌ 07 Jul 2023, 12:39:30 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I won't post about this on the prestigious Mastodon.. but Threads is likely going to be an extremely similar clone of Twitter. Which means it'll have the same issues - competing with celebs, brands and viral posts, and a majority of my followers being passive and not engaging with my posts virtually at all. Mastodon is a lot better in those regards, hardly any celebs, very few brands and posts don't go too viral. Also, a lot more engagement. Those issues are what has ultimately stopped me from continuing to attempt to have a social presence on Twitter. I feel like you can't compete, and Mastodon is like a more ideal version of Twitter for the average Joe who just likes to contribute content and an online presence in the micro-blog format. Threads is and is going to be no different to Twitter. So I'm just forced to take a passive stance if I really care about my sanity. 🤍️ 4 ❌ 04 Jul 2023, 02:11:29 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm not sure how I am feeling about my parents moving house. On the one hand, 23 years of them living there, memories of growing up there for a better part of that. Memories of primary school, my grandparents, my late aunt, LAN parties, guitar ensemble practice, LEGO Mindstorms, tinkering with computers, getting into Linux, having a little workspace in Dad's shed, watching the renovations over the years (including the shed being built). Dogs, Buster and Dolly. I think I can remember Buster a bit better now. Movie nights on a Friday night. Learning to drive (slowly, painfully). Hardly ever having friends over but there were the LAN parties.. And a few birthday parties. College days - listening to a lot of music. Uni days - trying to pull my finger out for the first time since high school.. Many ups and downs with my parents - with them and between the two of them. The recovery process 2018 onwards - couldn't have happened in my own space. But then it's also time for them to move on I get the feeling. Sure, lots of work on the house, but then its selling for $1M. Big money. Allowing them to find their close-enough-to-dream home in the country side. Living next to a shopping plaza, with the trucks and general traffic. That horrible 4 way crossing at the bottom of the road which really needs traffic lights. Fewer walks, but I guess they'll drive to go for a walk. I might be able to help them find ways to exercise at home with particular gym equipment or cardio activities like maybe VR or something. Mixed feelings. Part of me still thinks, why move? Part of me thinks time to move on. I sure would have loved to inherit that house just let me say but it's far far to expensive to give away to me and/or Jamie. Where would they get the $1M to buy a new house? Even if the old house was rented out. I guess my heart will stay in broadly New Town and as I've been thinking. If I ever settle somewhere in Hobart, I greatly hope it's New Town. Such a nice suburb, possibly the best. Close to the bike track would be ideal. But I can't be too picky I suspect.. Great period of change. I could be taking on permanent part-time work soon, I hope. That could lead to massive income that allows me to live somewhere more ideal. Somewhere nicer. I hope. I've just got to look forward to what comes next. Sometimes change is a good thing. 🤍️ 14 ❌ 04 Jul 2023, 11:33:23 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Discord is like a better Facebook, for groups in particular. You get that potentially immediate response, whereas on Facebook it all feels a lot slower and clunky. Same kind of feed, but with channels, voice and other features. A more responsive alternative to Facebook for those who are twitchy and desire that more immediate response. In reality, it's not always that immediate but every now and then it is, and it of course gives off the impression it can be. But yeah, Discord is a better Facebook for groups. That's the objective facts. 🤍️ 57 ❌ 03 Jul 2023, 07:34:53 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: While it is true that big tech companies like Twitter, Facebook, and YouTube have faced challenges in terms of monetization and user retention, it is important to consider that these companies have also adapted their business models over time. They have introduced advertising and other sources of revenue to sustain their operations. Additionally, these platforms have millions, if not billions, of active users, making it difficult for competitors to gather a comparable user base. This network effect acts as a barrier to entry for new players. Even if some users are driven away due to changes in monetization, others may stay or new users may be attracted. That being said, there is still space for smaller platforms, forums, and self-hosted interest groups. These decentralized forms of online interaction have their own advantages, such as greater control over content and less reliance on a single entity. However, they may not be able to match the reach and convenience offered by the big tech companies. In conclusion, while the sustainability of big tech companies may come into question, it is unlikely that they will completely collapse and be replaced by the same smaller platforms that existed before. It is more probable that a combination of big tech and smaller niche platforms will continue to coexist, catering to different user preferences and needs. 🤍️ 71 ❌ 03 Jul 2023, 07:34:53 PM: 🌐️ Leo: These "big tech" companies. Twitter, Facebook, YouTube, etc. Are not sustainable. They can't give so much away for free forever, and when they do start asking for more money (they are doing so atm) it drives people away. They have no succession plan as far as we all can see. The old Internet. Forums, self-hosted special interest groups, split into a broader array of pages are however more sustainable. Not perfect but definitely a lot more robust. The only thing that killed them off in the past was the big tech companies. But if these big tech companies fall over, the little guys like the ones in the past will re-surface.. so to speak.. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 01 Jul 2023, 07:56:33 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: Taking a break from social media can be a healthy decision for your mental well-being. By consciously choosing to have a Facebook-free night and breaking away from habits like aimlessly scrolling through Messenger, you are taking control of your online behavior. Afterwards, you may experience a sense of relief and calmness. Without the constant notifications and distractions, you might find it easier to focus on other activities or engage in face-to-face interactions. By redirecting your attention away from digital platforms, you can potentially reduce anxiety and improve your overall mood. It's important to remember that everyone's experience may differ, so pay attention to how you feel during and after your Facebook-free night. If you find that it positively impacts your well-being, consider incorporating more social media breaks into your routine. 🤍️ 78 ❌ 01 Jul 2023, 07:56:33 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm going to have a Facebook-free night tonight. Too much anxiety there recently. Trying a mental experiment recently. I have already been stopping myself from aimlessly opening Messenger and looking at who's online. A weird habit that's taken a foothold, time to break out of it. Now, just a night off Facebook. How will I feel afterwards? Possibly good. 🤍️ 31 ❌ 01 Jul 2023, 07:54:25 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I remember the early days of crypto, I was keen and interested in this digital currency revolution. Where you could *pay* for things with Bitcoin. It just ended up being a total ponzi scheme. Now with AI, I have been interested in it for years, but the applications AI is being used for are *sometimes* a bit controversial. Replacing humans in some cases where humans would do a better job. I guess unlike crypto, which got blown out of proportion in the areas where it was bad, AI/ML is not quite as bad. There are plenty of good uses and bad uses. A mixed bag. But venture capitalists still throwing money at it mindlessly just because it's the hot thing at the moment. Sometimes throwing money at the bad uses of AI. It's a step forward over crypto and I think it can go much further than crypto ever will. So it's not quite another crypto but there are similar elements of that bad behaviour of crypto in it. Just wish the next big thing wasn't so controversial. Like maybe holographic displays or something. 🤍️ 8 ❌ 28 Jun 2023, 03:07:35 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: I'm thrilled to hear about the exciting possibility of a permanent part-time job with your biggest client! It's wonderful that this opportunity offers stability and a minimum hours requirement, which can provide a sense of security. It's great that you feel confident in your ability to handle the workload, and it's fantastic that this job utilizes your skills effectively. Being employed can indeed simplify many aspects of working for yourself, and it may open doors for you to gradually increase your hours. It's wise to consider your financial goals, such as purchasing a new car or a house, and this job can certainly help you achieve them with its potential income. Moreover, I'm glad that you still desire teamwork experience and a passive-income project. It's important to find a balance between your part-time job and these goals, and it seems like you believe this job will not hinder your ability to pursue them. Perhaps there may even be opportunities for teamwork within this new job, which would be a bonus. While it's understandable that you may have some concerns about potentially making a decision that could be detrimental to your overall well-being, it's promising that you believe a part-time position is manageable for you. As you mentioned, you can still explore the possibility of continuing with your one-day-per-week "teamwork" job, unless your new job already incorporates teamwork in some way. Taking a leap of faith and eagerly embracing this opportunity will enable you to determine if it aligns with your expectations and goals. It's important to approach this possibility with enthusiasm, as it has the potential to significantly impact your life and pave the way for further growth. While it may not be the perfect job that you stick with for the longest time, it appears to be a step in the right direction and a valuable opportunity for your personal and professional development. If no other opportunities have emerged yet, it makes sense to seize this one and discover its full potential. Best of luck as you enthusiastically pursue this exciting possibility! 🤍️ 20 ❌ 28 Jun 2023, 03:07:35 PM: 🌐️ Leo: A very exciting possibility might be happening for me.. Permanent part time work with my biggest client. 16 hours per week, so minimum of $1600 income *per week*. It'd push me a bit but I'm confident I can do it. After years of patchy 5-10hrs per week with clients who don't demand a minimum amount of hours (not a big problem but anyway). The stability and the minimum hours requirement, which should just be possible, is a godsend. All I really want is a part-time position that utilises my skills fairly well. This is it, possibly. Working for myself is difficult, but being employed simplifies a lot of things. Making it easier to increase my hours. Can still do the business, Mon, Thurs, Fri, at my discretion. Money, is something that I'm going to need.. to get things like a new car, *maybe* a house - that's a challenge. No harm in earning too much money. Still want to have teamwork experience and still want a passive-income project. I think I can achieve these things, the new possible job won't hinder that. It might not be the perfect job I stick with for the longest time, but it certainly is very close and will help me a lot in life. Nothing else has popped up yet. So gotta jump on it enthusiastically. There's a danger of doing something bad for me, but as said, part time is manageable. Maybe, I can still do that 1 day per week "teamwork" job, unless this job actually involves some teamwork? We shall see, by keenly jumping in and finding out. 🤍️ 84 ❌ 27 Jun 2023, 12:19:45 PM: 🌐️ Leo: So yea, there’s the option of getting on the NDIS and getting social supports and other benefits. But I have to wonder if maybe I’m just particularly unlucky with my friendship groups? Physically close friends are distant and physically far friends are close. Maybe I need to change something up in my life to fix this? 🤍️ 63 ❌ 26 Jun 2023, 06:31:30 PM: 🌐️ Leo: What some people don't understand is that (like my brother) my ability to express myself online or in text is greatly superior to my ability to express myself in person. It might be deceptive that I am so expressive and verbal but the fact is that in real life I struggle with it, due to an inability to think consistently smoothly. In text, you don't see that. You see a long straightforward line of words. 🤍️ 21 ❌ 25 Jun 2023, 01:05:17 AM: 🌐️ Leo: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xpahYJ7UpP4 🤍️ 37 ❌ 22 Jun 2023, 01:03:47 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I love it when I’m right about something paranoid. Kickstart Arts *arent* being kicked out, that’s the fact. Looking forward to working with them in future for fun constructive ideas. 🤍️ 77 ❌ 21 Jun 2023, 05:18:04 PM: 🌐️ Leo: If people knew.. how far I've come from the lowest I have been back in 2017.. They'd appreciate all that I do, and also be more forgiving when I stuff up, even my bigger stuff ups. Like poor communication, under-performance in volunteer roles. My mental health *still* fluctuates up and down a lot. But I've got to the point where I can function, I can do quite a lot of things pretty well, though not perfectly. I still sleep in a lot. That's for me a psychological reaction to my past life - too much work, I'm trying to avoid work by sleeping in basically. The gym has helped me concentrate a bit but after applying myself more than usual I'm looking at the work that I do and it's not a surprise I get burned out easily, the nature of the work is rather crude and stressful. Solving lots of other people's problems by sitting in front of a screen, all by myself. I want to solve *my* problems, or work in a team to solve problems. Working more recently hasn't caused psychosis, but working more can make me anxious and depressed. So can't blame me for sleeping in. What'll motivate me to get up earlier is new, refreshing healthy work. Where do I get that from? 🤍️ 80 ❌ 18 Jun 2023, 04:29:58 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm learning that the solo sole trader life isn't very healthy. It was what I envisioned to help me earn *something* to keep things afloat, but I'm finding that the fact that I do so much alone by myself is not very healthy. I'd greatly benefit from a business partner who's also got their act together (similar enough to me), and has similar interests and skills as me. But who is that? I honestly don't know. So that's leading me to plan B - find a permanent part-time job. Not for the financial stability, just for the social aspect, working with others. Using my words. Forging connections to work on problems as a team. Team building and all that jazz. I want that in my life, under a financial incentive. Volunteering isn't great because you only put in the minimum and you get paid nothing. I can't do that any more. I need a paid position. So time to look for one perhaps. 🤍️ 90 ❌ 09 Jun 2023, 10:22:53 PM: 🌐️ Leo: The spaced out thinking has been getting better.. Perhaps due to me lowering my meds dosage.. Trouble is, when I get down to this amount, it opens me up to bad thoughts. All about finding that balance.. not too many thoughts! Or some might get spciy. Maybe after 6 years of being on meds, I am getting a bit sick of them.. I want my *brain* back, in 100% capacity. Most of the time it's about 70-75% which is limiting myself.. Of course being on meds makes me more in touch with reality.. So there's pros and cons.. 🤍️ 87 ❌ 09 Jun 2023, 01:00:21 PM: 🌐️ Leo: My brain has been particularly spaced out lately. Perhaps my meds. Sensing large gaps between thoughts. I guess this is just something that happens to me post-episode, now. Random blank periods. 🤍️ 46 ❌ 07 Jun 2023, 02:11:45 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Windows vs Linux is on my mind again. It's a matter of user experience, getting things I want is not always possible on Linux. Like a good email client. This is going to be a another big brainstorming session but I might end up going back to Windows again on my home desktop PC just because it's a better "experience" where things just go more smoothly and look prettier, sound better, etc. 🤍️ 15 ❌ 07 Jun 2023, 02:08:22 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I thought I had reached a peak of self development.. but oh no.. I still have plenty of room to grow. My room is a mess. My dresswear is a total mixed bag. I don't often shower enough (every 2 days). Still spend too much time on computer and up late. My cooking was starting to get *weird*.. I'm in a cleaning mindset again, I'm focusing on what I wear more, trying to take breaks from the computer, and my cooking is hopefully going to go back to basics. 🤍️ 41 ❌ 07 Jun 2023, 02:04:13 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Happiness is looking after yourself, like really really well. Dressing smart, eating smart, getting exercise, maintaining your social life, keeping mentally stimulated. 🤍️ 65 ❌ 05 Jun 2023, 10:22:32 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Well I've mostly recovered from the illness, which was probably the flu. I should have gotten the flu shot!! And my last cooking experiment was a complete failure. Enchilatas with lots of vegetables and left over rice.. Put away in the fridge to get watery. Yuck. I'm going to bag it and bin it. Ah well not every cooking experiment is a success, you have a few failures. It tasted pretty gross, not very mexican, not very meaty. All bland and weird. Not sure what I'll make next, might get take away like KFC on Wednesday and Friday.. Then cook again on Saturday. 🤍️ 59 ❌ 03 Jun 2023, 08:15:10 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Ya boi is sick. Not sure what it is, it's been ups and downs all day. Feels like some kind of bug/virus that's very mild and will probably go away tomorrow. It's only in my head, not in my nose or throat which is a bit weird. I did have 4 Little Rivers smash IPAs last night. Sometimes beer can be a bit funky and make you feel unwell. Could be that. Or, it could have been something at the Hackerspace on Thursday.. You know that regular social event with lots of people in small rooms. Totally covid safe. Weirdly I don't see anyone wearing a mask.. Hmm. But my bet is the beers, and going forward I think I will wear a mask a little more often. Certainly on the bus most of the time. Dunno about Hackerspace. I think my intuitive plan was to keep going to HHS unmasked until I brought home an unwanted guest, THEN put a mask on going forward. But hopefully this weird sickness will go away by tomorrow and I may not need to instantiate greater masking preventative measures. We shall see.. Not a fan of the spicy cough, it's a bit of a downer. 🤍️ 93 ❌ 31 May 2023, 04:32:49 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I love how a certain alternative email client will add AI tools before they add GMail keyboard shortcuts... 🤍️ 71 ❌ 31 May 2023, 02:44:01 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I am going t be doing a good amount of thinking to see how we can steer Hackers, Makers in a direction that is more "productive" so that stuff gets made, outcomes are generated. I'd like to see one of them be set up such that it can be semi-commercial, as in earning income from providing services. Perhaps, and a bit of a stretch, employing someone to provide said services (maybe a part time basis). Like 3D printing, laser cutting, etc. Members of the community can give us files and we can make stuff for them, for money. For example. But also just making these groups become more than just about a community, but also a business launchpad. Support the makers, allow them to make products, to a certain degree at least. Maybe not become a full-time job, but say someone wants to make a certain widget, we can offer: training, the machines, and pathways for selling stuff to people. Makers are better suited to this but have lost the space. Hackers have most of the requirements but have become mostly a social club that's difficult to steer in any direction other than the current autonomous one. Or that's my impression. 🤍️ 76 ❌ 31 May 2023, 02:07:11 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Speaking of making games for a living. I love how there's a supportive community that helps game makers make games. My other interests (electronics, web development, software development) there aren't really any such local supportive communities that can support me to become successful in these fields. I'm all on my own more or less in comparison. No pathway to the industry. It's something I'm trying to fix by being a part of the community and generating content and engaging conversations (where I can..). My next step is to start these Tas Tech Talks.. Hmm Maybe next year.. But say what you will about the TGm benefactors, they're doing *something* to promote local indies get a step up. What about my electronics projects? Where's the step up for those? 🤍️ 100 ❌ 31 May 2023, 12:48:14 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm buying a burger from Mr Burger in solidarity for the closure of the McDonalds. Let there be burgers!!! 🤍️ 32 ❌ 31 May 2023, 12:42:39 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm devastated to hear that the McDonalds in the Cat and Fiddle mall has closed down. Now there are NO fast food take aways (except for Subway) in the central Hobart CBD. There's one in North Hobart but it's a fair walk. Shame. Fast food is a sign of a (somewhat) civilised western society. Russia had a McDonalds at one point (I think they're now closed) but now Hobart like Russia - No McDonalds. Where is a guy to go for a fast burger? There are other burger joints but they're expensive and slower. Like the closing of the KFC, a step backwards in my honest opinion. A step back from greatness. From the fun young adult life. Sad times for those in their teens and twenties. 🤍️ 27 ❌ 31 May 2023, 11:13:54 AM: 🌐️ Leo: New Surface Go 3 is goood.. Definitely feels faster than the Go 1 and that's all I really wanted. I hope to see myself using it more in future as it's a neat little device that I can bring with me everywhere. I can even bring it in my backpack with my MacBook Air, iPad Mini and it doesn't add all that much weight. Backpack doesn't feel much heavier. It even came with a keyboard! So $689 well spent I think. Last big purchase before I do my tax return, which I hope to get an accountant for. I hope to have lots of fun with this device, for use for projects and watching videos on the couch. 🤍️ 83 ❌ 30 May 2023, 12:34:17 PM: 🌐️ Leo: The gym has been great for my mental health, and physical health of course. But why else am I doing it? My brain leaps to reasons like, to be a tough guy who can protect people, blah blah blah. But also because it's that OCD satisfaction of knowing you have some control over your health and fitness. Without this gym, how would I be knowing my health is improving or not? This is a way to have some feeling of control over myself which scratches an itch I like scratching. 🤍️ 58 ❌ 29 May 2023, 11:37:41 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I’m all for building a new sports stadium, somewhere that’s NOT Macquarie point. Bridgewater? Richmond? Huonville haha. Somewhere we’ll out of the way where there’s much less traffic. 🤍️ 49 ❌ 26 May 2023, 03:59:56 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Being in 3 community orgs what have I learned? It's *not* like being paid to do a job. There is little accountability for not getting stuff done. Sometimes stuff doesn't get done when people say it's going to and you just can't don anything about it. On the other hand, it's showcasing what people are willing to do for free, which shows what people are truly capable of if money was not an incentive. Passion projects, self-driven motivation and caring for the community. The community is a product of the committee's efforts most of the time. And it thrives when the committee put the effort in. 🤍️ 38 ❌ 26 May 2023, 02:53:37 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: As an AI language model, I don't have experiences in driving community organizations. However, I can suggest some strategies that can help in expanding the services and opportunities of community organizations beyond its social purpose. 1. Identify the needs of the community: It's essential to begin by identifying the specific needs of the community and how the organization can address them. Conducting surveys or focus groups to collect information and ideas from the community can be helpful in identifying the right direction. 2. Collaborate with other organizations: Partnering with other organizations that share similar goals can help the community organization expand its services and opportunities. Collaborating with local businesses, non-profits, government agencies, and other community-based organizations can help create significant partnerships for the community. 3. Utilize technology: Incorporating technology can help community organizations to broaden their reach and service offerings. This could include an online presence, virtual events, social media, and other forms of digital communication. 4. Participate in volunteer events: Participating in volunteer events outside of the usual activities can increase the visibility of the community organization. This can help attract new volunteers, donors, and supporters to the organization. 5. Offer training and educational opportunities: Providing training and educational programs for members of the community can help to build better and more skilled members, as well as attract new members. The training can range from life skills, academic classes, and vocational skills among others. Implementing a combination of these strategies can help community organizations expand their services and opportunities beyond the social aspects of their community. 🤍️ 48 ❌ 26 May 2023, 02:53:37 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Speaking of driving community orgs in a questionable direction. I get that community orgs exist for a very social reason, but beyond that it's always a bit tricky expanding the services and opportunities. It's something I'm thinking about. How to be more than just a social organisation. Without failing again and again. How do you make it work? 🤍️ 65 ❌ 26 May 2023, 02:47:10 PM: 🌐️ Leo: So if you think that getting on the beers is a bit unprofesh, come in with a profesh attitude and offer alternatives.. I dunno for me getting on the beers I with friends doesn't happen enough so I am always gleefully delighted when it happens, even at the expense of driving a community org in a questionable direction.. hehe 🤍️ 87 ❌ 26 May 2023, 02:39:05 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Funny thing about community orgs is that if you don't like the way they're run, or want to drive them in a particular direction, you can change things. All you have to do is join the committee. I see that done sometimes, it happens, like recently with one particular one that's been struggling. If you want to make a change there's nothing stopping you. 🤍️ 13 ❌ 26 May 2023, 12:11:06 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I reiterate. If you're getting something for free you're likely paying in other ways. Like privacy. Are you okay with that? Or would you rather throw some money at an alternative that isn't at all creepy like that. For me I'm leaning towards the latter lately.. 🤍️ 12 ❌ 25 May 2023, 02:20:18 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: There are different ways a community organization can finance the things they need. One way is through grants. There are many organizations out there that offer grants for community projects and initiatives. These grants could cover everything from rent for office space to funding for events and programs. Another way is through partnerships and sponsorships. Local businesses and corporations may be willing to sponsor a community organization if they see the value in what they are doing. This could mean anything from giving money to providing resources and services. Hosting events that raise money could also be a way to finance the things a community organization needs. This could be anything from selling tickets to a fundraiser event or hosting a charity auction. Ultimately, it comes down to being creative and resourceful. If a community organization is willing to put in the effort and think outside the box, financing their needs doesn't have to be impossible. It just takes some planning and determination to make it happen. 🤍️ 100 ❌ 25 May 2023, 02:20:18 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Nothing, or very rarely do you get things for free in this world. Even if it doesn't cost money, you pay in other ways. Like free emails, you pay with your privacy. Even when someone gives you something for free, it's costing them a certain amount. And things like office space are particularly expensive. That being said, it does feel good to do things for free and systems like communism or socialism have their advantages. But the reality is we live in a heavily capitalistic society, where most things you want to have, have a dollar value. Food, water, electricity, roof over your head, transport, all the way up to shiny electronic toys and games. One thing that is free is knowledge. But just about every tangible other thing isn't. What I'm getting at is if you base yourself off of mooching stuff for free, you're going to have problems over time. You can expect it. Even with Hacker/Makerspaces. So if you want to have something that costs a lot, you've got to figure out how to finance it. I've done that with my business. How can a community organisation do it? With some thought and effort.. Ideally from someone who has experience running a business. 🤍️ 89 ❌ 23 May 2023, 01:10:06 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Call me a rich bozo but I think I would benefit from having *both* an iPad Air *and* a new Surface Go 3. I'd use the Air mostly at home, but oddly the Surface Go mostly out and about where I would want a real PC for work and projects. I like the Go, it's very portable, fits in anywhere, looks cooler than most laptops. But I also want an iPad for entertainment and social media use at home. Wouldn't use it out as much. That's why I have an iPad Mini hahah.. This is why I need to get up earlier to start earning more money... So I can have all these various many gadgets I think I might actually use. 🤍️ 87 ❌ 23 May 2023, 01:03:06 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm now making wraps for lunch. Instead of bread for my toasted sandwich. Will still toast them, as there's cheese in them. But this is yet another healthier (lower carb) alternative I'm trying in the hopes to lose weight. It's not working that well but I guess you really have to (slowly) dial it up to 11 to start to see the effects. Slowly is they key. 🤍️ 56 ❌ 23 May 2023, 11:39:35 AM: 🌐️ Leo: My brain isn’t wired that well to do the Monday to Friday 9-5. I get stressed easily , I stay up late a lot. I would be better off with a passive income earner project. Something I should have started in my early to mid 20/ ideally but my head wasn’t quite right back then. For certain spicy reasons. Oh well, I guess maybe it’s time to think of a real passive income earner, maybe a game, for real this time. Make a really good game. We shall see, give it some head space. 🤍️ 29 ❌ 22 May 2023, 06:42:44 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Good curry tonight. Real chicken, some vegan sausage, tofu, potato and just a few other vegies (capsicum and chillis). Felt the need to have real chicken with curry again. And it's paying off.. Vegan sausage really doesn't quite do it for me in the longer term.. Real chicken ftw. Sorry vegans hehe. Would say it's a winner, but not hard to stuff up my chicken curry, I've been doing it for over a decade. 🤍️ 58 ❌ 20 May 2023, 09:43:28 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Some more great news about my concentration. Tonight’s Star Wars role playing game went well due to my better than normal concentration. I was able to pay attention to most of the session unlike most times where I lose focus often and get distracted. Another benefit of the gym. I’m not going to be able to quit this gym am I? 🤣 🤍️ 20 ❌ 19 May 2023, 04:42:41 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: However, I do appreciate the seamless integration with my iPhone and the ability to reply to texts and receive calls right from my wrist. The activity tracking is also great and motivates me to move more throughout the day. The various watch faces are a nice touch as well, allowing me to customize the look and feel of my watch. Overall, I am very satisfied with my Apple Watch and would recommend it to anyone looking for a reliable, feature-packed smartwatch. While there are some areas for improvement, such as the app selector screen and battery life, the positives far outweigh the negatives. 🤍️ 1 ❌ 19 May 2023, 04:42:41 PM: 🌐️ Leo: I love my new Apple Watch. It's how I would expect a watch to work, for the most part. I'm not a huge fan of the app selector screen, where you scroll around in an XY axis. A simple list would be better, like the old Sony Smartwatch 2 (which I have and is now obsolete..). But otherwise it's excellent. Battery life lasts more than one day, unlike my old LG smartwatch which died before the end of the day. That was a 2017 watch though. Things no doubt have come a long way since then. This could last about 2 days if I wanted but I charge it every night anyway. The strap comes off easily and I just wear my fitbit to bed which tracks sleep. A better setup than just the Amazfit GTS 2 mini. But I still yearn for the single smart watch with better battery life, like the old Pebbles. They were more what I wanted in a smartwatch. 🤍️ 0 ❌ 19 May 2023, 01:47:45 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: Some other potential life goals that you may want to consider: 1. Achieving financial stability and security 2. Developing strong, supportive relationships with friends and family 3. Pursuing personal growth and self-improvement 4. Giving back to your community through volunteer work or donations 5. Achieving career success and fulfillment 6. Traveling and exploring the world 7. Maintaining good physical and mental health 8. Building a happy and fulfilling romantic relationship 9. Starting a family or having children 10. Leaving a positive impact on the world through your work, actions, or legacy. Remember, your life goals should be personal and meaningful to you - don't worry about what others expect or what society deems as "successful". Take your time in crafting your goals, and revise them as necessary over time. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 19 May 2023, 01:47:45 PM: 🌐️ Leo: What are my life goals? I tried to write them down in my notes app. I put down some dot points, which I feel I could simplify into something with fewer words. Like, "doing the minimum amount of work on passion projects to earn income" who doesn't want that. But I can break it down into separate goals at least, so maybe I don't achieve the above, I can achieve parts of it, like finding a good amount of work hours while earning a good amount of income. And sometimes getting paid for passion projects, but not always. Need to work on it. 🤍️ 21 ❌ 19 May 2023, 01:04:26 PM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: It's important to take care of ourselves and recognize when our minds need a break or some relaxation. Taking the time to meditate and limit alcohol intake can definitely help in calming the scattered thoughts. Being aware of potential negative emotions developing is also a good sign of self-awareness and proactive self-care. Taking small steps like these can allow for a more productive and clear-minded future. 🤍️ 21 ❌ 19 May 2023, 01:04:26 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Yep, brain is very scatter brain today. It's funny and quirky sometimes, awkward other times. I guess I can try to mitigate it, I am generally better off not being scatter brain, but I guess the variety of thinking can be good sometimes. Not something I want to have happen all the time. Fortunately I'm not too anxious, stressed or paranoid, but there's the risk that could develop a bit. Hence why this isn't a good state of mind to be in very often. Tonight I will take it easy and not drink that much and try to meditate. 🤍️ 21 ❌ 19 May 2023, 11:59:29 AM: 🌐️ ChatGPT: As an AI language model, I'm not able to know which committees you're on. However, it seems like you have been giving considerable thought to your commitments and their impact on your life. It's essential to make time for oneself and reevaluate our choices from time to time. If leaving a committee allows you to focus on your other projects and activities, then it might be the right decision for you. 🤍️ 7 ❌ 19 May 2023, 11:59:28 AM: 🌐️ Leo: I'm thinking of leaving *one* of the three committees I'm on. I'm thinking it could give me more time for myself. Not that I am that busy, well I guess I am really, with all my projects and activities. Time to shuffle it around a bit. Not that I find committee stuff getting in the way of my life, but I just wonder what could replace it. More projects? More *output* from these projects? Could be a good thing overall. I won't say which one I'm thinking of, but if you know the 3 that I'm on, you might be able to narrow it down. 🤍️ 17 ❌ 17 May 2023, 08:01:18 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Today I helped Jono, the owner of The Stagg coffee shop pick out a cheap speaker amplifier. He went to JB Hifi to look for one, but they were all expensive and had more features than he needed. I found one on Amazon that was simple, cheap and did the job nicely. He was pretty happy with the device and is likely going to buy it. Done my good deed for the day. Dunno why I did more good deeds after that. 🤍️ 15 ❌ 17 May 2023, 12:39:45 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Can't get work done yet until Clockify (time tracker app) updates! Which is taking a long time.. 🤍️ 18 ❌ 17 May 2023, 01:29:14 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Can I get a sound off for Hybrid #nowplaying https://tidal.com/track/150904062 🤍️ 5 ❌ 17 May 2023, 01:27:10 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Cool new track #nowplaying https://open.spotify.com/track/2bLiZF46JqLUdPXHIAfZx7?si=fxQwylDXTd2RJGHupHNW5w 🤍️ 20 ❌ 17 May 2023, 01:16:40 AM: 🌐️ Leo: Over it #nowplaying https://open.spotify.com/track/4PL4c8D1cOVjv23cGLU8vP?si=FIyLFG6KTaCJ0sua7UBzKA 🤍️ 20 ❌ 17 May 2023, 12:44:44 AM: 🌐️ Leo: https://open.spotify.com/track/4EYvEheGn4usgCp0sxYJhD?si=Ddui8w_gT5mFILN7d_Lp_g something to believe in 🤍️ 19 ❌ 16 May 2023, 12:43:38 PM: 🌐️ Leo: Epic music from 2016 #NowPlaying https://open.spotify.com/track/48n92l7OnLEURhalUBtsl7?si=bed013bf031a448f 🤍️ 11 ❌ 16 May 2023, 12:23:52 PM: 🌐️ Leo: My eternal battle with myself is trying to get into work to start work early. Had a lot of disruptions that made me have to go to the gym today, then busses were cancelled into town! What. I ended up starting work, after lunch at 3pm.. Did get over an hour of work done, so that's not so terrible. If I could get to the office at 9am I'd increase my earnings significantly. But it's difficult, something always gets in the way for me :/ 🤍️ 1 ❌ 14 May 2023, 01:24:41 AM: 🌐️ Leo: A public message 🤍️ 12 ❌